101.

Centennial


One hundred footprints sunk in sand
On path of life to distant land
Within each one shines new-lost hope
Let past now fall down future’s slope

One hundred chances turned to dust
Seen only now in dreams of past
Suppressed by guilt and blind mind’s trick
Those chances tumble by so quick

One hundred people loved so dear
Their picture’s framed by crystal tear
That rolls down cheek unknown by kiss
Of those whose pictures now I’ll miss

One hundred songs I’ve yet to sing
And still more dreams I’ve yet to bring
To life and love and future’s chance
Now come with me and join the dance

100

100


10x10 – in secret smile
A target hit and put in file
Of short life’s record, paper thin
Write down quick what lies within

5x20 – love will last
Through burning hope and broken hearts
With unknown friendships soon to forge
And life to find in deadly gorge

10x10 – and still I run
Alone to beat of silent drum
My life in whisper’s ghosts will fly
To dream, to live, but never die

99.

Exam II


The piece of paper sits on desk
Words shout out in tongues of jest
Your mind’s a blank, the pages turn
To test the topic yet to learn

In panic’s sweep you reach for pen
And write on instinct, time again
Pages rustle, the end so near
On hundred faces dead with fear

98.

Changes


When at first I saw the light
I started screaming, lost in flight
A lie so strong it made me blind
To truth of life I knew in mind

To know my truth away from lie
And find the source of tears I cry
Of life in lie and hated mask
The ‘normal’, ‘proper’, locked in cast

Break through life in four-inch heels
Dye my hair and paint my nails
Live for me and fuck the rest

My dream, my love, my plastic chest

97.

Gift


A feeling warm and soft inside
A piece of heart that now won’t die
For love of strangers felt so strong
Crashing down on empty tomb
Of loveless life that soon may pass
If this new love will chance and last

96.

Ice-Cold Fire


I keep my heart in icy tomb
To perish fast the lifeless wrong
Of love and trust – that soulless hell
A glittering poison’s silent shell

Who lives and runs in long lost love?
And shares in angels’ gentle code?
Of trusting love till death us part
With fire’s warmth in ice-cold heart

If alone a heart must last
Sustained by dreams and hope of chance
Then will poison run its race
To pierce the depths of lover’s chase

My heart is cold for want of warmth
Suppressed by poison’s dreaming storms
The love I feel is ice indeed
For true love dreams can never be

In dream-world’s dancing deathly hell
I pin my life to wall of shell
Lay trapped in head and icy heart
Alone until the fires start

95.

Hidden Screams in Floating Dreams


In dreams I find the lie I love
To float and fly in silent hope
Life-world hoping, soon to die
And dream-world living’s gentle lie

Yet silent dreams must come to pass
And life’s cruel chest must one day close
The key to life unknown by love
Lies scared and shattered, drowned in blood