Timeo Danaos Et Dona Ferentes
A chance at last to now be grasped
Wish shaking hands and dancing heart
The smile of one who could be he
Who breaks through life to set me free
And then the gifted chance unwraps
To show the truth with hellish laughs
No chance exists except in mind
The tortured hope I hold inside
On cliff top screaming, knife in hand
For desperate wish of better land
I free my tears to blooded sky
And scream to God now let me die
Maybe
I think at last I have a chance
A silvered hope in distant view
Of morning smile to match my own
And arms to hold in safe and calm
But this chance I think will rest
On daring leap from safety’s cliff
From height so tall I lose my breath
For fear of fall and death’s embrace
A nightmare’s dream in sunset sky
Alone in hope of chance’s flight
Of breaking free from torment rest
To live a life I know will last
CLVIII
Chances jump and fly inside
Unearthly joy to play the bride
To dancing shadows left in heart
A stranger’s smile with lips to hide
A shallow truth left lost in words
That lie unsaid on wayside curb
In guttered hell till once they play
And flit and fly in sunset sky
Double
There’s nothing there, but still the noise
The shroud of ice around my heart
A secret whisper, thunder-loud
Still shining dark in dreaming soul
In thoughts and mind and soft embrace
A gentle torture, loved with hate
Forever
I know I’ll never be the One
I know I’ll never have His heart
To love and to hold and to keep as my own
And forever love through lifelong storm
I know I’ll never hold Her close
And keep Her safe through fears unknown
To keep and to hold and to love Her forever
Heal Her heart and wipe away the tear
In silent dream my heart will lie
With a thousand scars for every tear
Thrown blooded red at chances passed
In screaming dark until the last
So
So close I can almost touch him
So close I can almost feel his breath
So far I cannot count the distance
So far I’ll never close the gap
So soft a smile it breaks my heart
So sweet a laugh I cannot bear
So dead inside I’ll never live
So forever stay in silence kiss
