84.

A Final Request


Lying in wait for soft secret shadow
Hoping that one day my true prince will come
Straight to my arms and heart like an arrow
Darting like thunder from Cupid’s pure bow

Screaming in anguish and hope everlasting
Laughing and crying in death undeparting
Waiting for someone to capture my heart
To take it and keep it and tear it apart

For someone to take me and rip me in two
That is the moment I’m hoping to know
Before I run soft blade through cruel stony wrist
I’m praying for someone to open my chest

83.

Do you know my little white lie?



Did you hear my screams last night?
Did you see my desperate plight?
Why did no-one hear my cry?
To gods and hope that I might die

Did you see but one fake mask?
Of calm and peace. Of light not dark
Did you think I trusted you?
To hold my secrets, pure and true

I lied to you, and once again
Cry scarlet tears like acid rain
For living dark in pure white lie
I scream to darkness, let me die

82.

A little rope
A lot of hurt



Limply hanging, swinging still
The truth floats freely, blood won’t spill
Support has fallen, rope will stretch
With weight of hurt to never rest
A thousand questions long will last
In memory of a broken heart

81.

Spoken Silence


Love and hate are both entwined
In dark despair and deathly mind
For loving wrong, I hate myself
For hoping long, I live in death

Wrong in body, wrong in soul
A heart lies frozen, soft and cold
The warmth he gives by smile so sweet
Is felt pure torture, pain so deep

To depths of heart a smiling spear
Rips soul and life right into tear
From angel’s eye a glistening joke
To fracture soft a desperate hope

For love and trust from one so pure
In kind words’ shock right through my core
My lovely angel… you’ll never know
Just how I feel. I love you so