120.

Alone in Life I Cry


Lonely soul in soft despair
Cry silken tear to candied air
Alive with friendship’s laugh so close
Behind a wall of private jokes

Defence so strong it breaks my heart
To force a smile from those who can’t
Can’t see the pain that lives within
Beneath the calm and joyful skin

A lie in life until my death
That I’m just fine with lonely breath
That I can cope as 'friends' walk by
A laugh and joke hides tears I cry

119.

Life in Dreams of Dreams of Life



A dream of life just out of reach
In night-time sight the love I seek
To live in truth and joyful smile
Without the lies so sick and vile

In secret sight of golden land
And caring clasp of lover’s hand
I beg for dreams to turn to truth
To let me run with love to sooth

I hate this life in which I lie
And hide my face from tears I cry
For any chance of new-born life
I’ll pay the fee, just name your price

118.

Dreamworld Dying



Hidden dreams and smothered cries
In secret life my pretty lies
That hold my fears as close as skin
Keep safe the longing held within

In body wrong and mind so scared
I fly in dreams that lay unheard
For life’s cruel rules destroy my heart
And make me long for what I can’t

Can’t see my dreams in waking day
Nor live with smile or happy cry
Till dreams to life may come to pass
I’m trapped in hell of life’s cruel dance

117.

Uncertainly


What do I want my scarlet dove?
In time gone by I longed for love
I yearned for him to hold me tight
To keep me safe throughout the night

Love lived in dreams and hid in day
It turned and looked the other way
It made me live devoid of life
And lead my heart to blood-red knife

But now has love appeared in day
And brings along the questions’ cry
That scream in every waking breath
To make me choose ‘tween life and death

Dead in life or life alone?
I scream to cold of silent tomb
Of dust-filled heart, devoid of love
That knows nought else but scarlet dove

116.

Kom Und Rette Mich


I live in dreams of pure white lie, behind my soul and tears I cry

My dreams my life and helpless dance, I die each night for want of chance

A lie so sweet I lost my life, fell headlong deep in hells’ dark wife

Forgot to live and love in truth, left lost in scared dreams of youth

Until my dreams and life do meet, I alone my death shall seek

So Rette Mich and Rescue Me, and save my soul from break of day

115.

Suppressèd Life


In common love that I despise
For social’s norm, sweet blanket lies
Nor man nor beast can know the tears
From running long from fear of fears

Assorted choice and mix of chance
In heaven’s rule of earthly dance
For Gods and Demons’ endless game
For us the players, wrought with shame

Flee through life away from pain
But find ourselves still here again
Let love unseen and cold as lies
Scream circles round our futile lives

Till death from love we desperate long
To end a life of soulless wrong
To reach for stars and heaven’s grasp
Release the love left lost in hearts