87.

Back So Soon?



I left you here not long ago
Why have you returned?

I turned my back and walked away
To save myself from me.

But you returned to haunt my mind
And cause my tears to flee.

Once again from wrist they stream
To cause my mind to bleed.

I think I know the reasons why
My lovely dreams returned.

My Scarlet Dove, my darling love
I’m here for you, now cry.

Send a tear for every fault
That then will bleed me dry.

Then send some more for every piece
Of heart that now alone must die.

For death departing love she brings
I need her now but once again.

I need to feel her warm embrace
Round shell I call a skin.

86.

Relapse



I did it again my scarlet dove
What I said I’d never do
I lost the hope that made me live
And came back home to you

I thought that I could live a truth
Yet lie right to my heart
I thought that I could be ‘just fine’
Whilst still in love with you

Obsessed with you in waking dreams
Of sweet as death and start again
I cry for you but one more time
Please love just let me die!

85.

Mine



I see you study, working true
In your coat of deepest blue
Startling envy grips my heart
Till I see that mine thou art

Mine for loving, holding strong
Mine for listening, problems long
Mine in every thought and word
Mine the torment, love unheard

Not for fear you’ll hear my plea
Hear it, throw it back at me
But for love unsure in heart
I know not what to do nor start

To let me love and then to hurt
Not one but two in life so short
Should I damn it all to hell
And take the chance and pay the toll

Or do I keep my heart entombed
For fear that I will feel the wound
Of love and hope and blinding light

And long life’s treasure, helpless flight