133.

Whispered Scream in NightDay Silence



Silence screaming, standing slow
In light of day with shadowed glow
To cast upon a heart unloved
That daily turns to scarlet dove

Alive in dreams of death depart
Embrace the blooded screaming heart
Of knife and lover’s cry to flee
Still standing small alive in me

132.

To Die at Birth is Such a Joy


I thought I knew my lonely heart
-It lived with me since womb depart
But now it comes with swift surprise
Another side from which to hide

Deadened soul and mind entwine
To loveless heart in search of sign
To love and lover’s dying breath
Of which may I not find till death

131.

Frozen Shadow



Silent shadow sweet depart
From broken mind and sullen heart
Release the screams left loveless lost
Beneath the clouds of frozen dust

One hundred winters long to stay
In chest of ice and soul of clay
That, moulded rough by others’ hands,
Feels foreign, lost, and coarse as sand

Alive with sadness, deep despair
Floats shadowlike in silent air
To smother kind the desperate plea
And make me drown in blood-red sea

130.

Scream

Silent drown in deep despair
Cast a net to catch the tear
Release the doubt held tight within
Each silent heart with song to sing
Alive in deathly hope unleashed
Mangled soul with love to seek

129.

Protection



I told a little lie last night
The reasons why? I’m scared to fight
My little lie caused no-one harm
So why am I so far from calm?
Shall I be held by ‘must’ and ‘should’
Or float and fly in ‘want’ and ‘could’?
Why must I lie to save my soul
When all I want is love to hold?
To keep me safe against the storm
I built a fort devoid of warm
With walls of cold and bricks of lies
I save my heart from tears I cried

128.

Prognosis



I hear the screams inside my soul
The crying hurt felt so deathly cold
In unseen illness and fractured love
A bitter sign sill hides its touch
Nothing’s broken but everything hurts
This is the sign of a broken heart