152.

Turn

I do not know the reasons why

Such little things can make me cry

Why glimpse of joy and happy days

Still keep me here alive with fears

Why strangers’ glance or tone of voice

Will make me block off one more choice

And dreamers’ hope for warm embrace

Dies a death and ends its race

151.

Envy

I know I’m cruel and cold inside
To silent groom I’ll play the bride
And live a death of frozen warmth
Devoid of open caring arms

I look outside at gleaming world
At faces known like stranger’s hand
In joys and hells they live their dreams
My joys lay dead in hell’s cold seams

Within the cage I’m locked inside
I scream at hell’s unearthly bride
To stop the lust for other’s lives
And live in peace in ruined prize

150.

Dreamer’s Debt


My dreams have ended – life is here
I fall down soft to shed a tear
With death-like knock upon the door
My hell breaks through with molten claw

The dancing shards of sunlight spears
That rip my soul to free my fears
To let them free to rule my mind
And leave my heart so far behind

In casket cold and starved of love
In shrivelled heart still hides the dove
Away from stars and warm embrace
She waits for chance to join the race

One thousand chances passed her by
She saw them flash like lighteninged sky
But still the cruel chains keep her close
Encircle her with blackened rose

My dreams she made her gentle rest
To live and love from safety’s nest
Allowed to laugh and run and cry
She lived and loved with childlike joy

But dreams, like life, must always end
And heartfelt wounds she now must tend
For whilst she lived in sunset sky
One thousand chances passed her by

Not seen nor heard but always there
Now every chance will bring a tear
In these she’ll drown for life’s regret
Until she’s freed from lifelong debt

149.

Red-Eyed Monster



Silent screams inside my head
The voice which says I should be dead
With acid words and gentle spears
The darkness plays on all my fears
To twist my mind to cruel intent
The anger screams with hate unspent

148.

Living


Silent screams and timid steps
Shown only in the snow’s cold breath
That lead away from life so frail
Away from truth’s embittered jail

A cage of air as warm as ice
Wrapped around like deathly vice
To squeeze all joy from life around
And make me scream in silence’s sound